I think one of the things that bugs me about having a c-section for this baby is that I feel like I'm being looked down upon, made into less of a "warrior woman," because of it. I mean, yes, I do honestly think that there is too much hospital intervention when it comes to birthing and that a goodly percent of women are woefully undereducated when it comes to their own pregnancies/birthing... And I DO agree that a natural birth is, well, the way it's supposed to go...
But what happens when it doesn't go that way at all? What happens when you've HAD medical intervention? Does having another c-section make my birthing experience any less valid? Does it mean I'm less of a mother because I didn't push the kid out vaginally? It's a vicious backlash, and it almost seems as if, in some circles, you're looked down upon for "taking the easy way out". Trust me, nothing about a c-section is easy.
Y'know, I'm glad there are more sites and more ways to access proper information. I am glad of the resurgence of midwifery and of women's empowerment. I am. I am just not one of those women who will be partaking of that particular brand of empowerment. I am still trying to be okay with that, and I think that has more to do with the guilt of NOT pursuing it than the actual procedure itself. I've already BEEN cut open once. I know how it goes.
And that surge of love you feel when you first feel that baby placed into your arms? Well, I'm pretty damn sure that's not any different, no matter how the baby's been delivered.
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